Our Road Trip
“Begin to see yourself as a soul with a body rather than a body with a soul.” – Wayne Dyer
When Scott was here, he listened to Self-Help Author and Spiritual Teacher Wayne Dyer. I got him turned on to Dyer. He would listen to him on his head phones. After he listened to Dyer, we would talk and discuss spiritual truths and how we wanted to change our thoughts to live a better life. I loved our talks together. Scott also really liked the spiritual teachings of living in the now with Eckhart Tolle.
One of my favorite books by Wayne Dyer is Living the Wisdom of the Tao. If I remember correctly, Dyer wrote the pages starting at 3 a.m. every morning by hand on a legal pad. Dyer liked to write at 3 am. He believed it was a spiritual hour where you could commune deep within yourself. He wrote "writing isn't something I do, writing is something I am."
Writing flows through you.
This is how I feel about writing. Sometimes, my writing gets chunky and it's hard to put my feelings and story down, I try to surrender and just allow the writing to flow from within, not editing too much (I'm sure you can tell).
Lately, I've been getting up at 3 a.m. I go to bed early and get up early. It just seems to be happening this way. My sleep rhythm is changing again. I am allowing it to happen, not trying to stop it. I don't know how this is going to work when I am back on the road traveling. I don't know what my accommodations are going to be. I may have my own room or I may have to share with others. I will need to adapt my writing to where I am.
"In the recovery movement, they call what I'm talking about letting go and letting God. If you're uncomfortable with the word God, just add an o and make it Good. The two words are interchangeable. It just means allowing this divine source of kindness, beauty and creativity to be the dominant force in your life - whatever you're doing. I truly believe that God writes all the books and builds all the bridges. Sure, I sit down for six or seven hours a day with my pen and pads - but the message moves though me and I just allow." Wayne Dyer
My life has been a testament of letting go. Letting go is the only way I have been able to move through my life. My biggest letting go and most painful letting go is losing Scott. I can't go back to what we had. I can't hang on to our past life together. I can't bring him back.
I have to keep moving forward. Letting go is the vehicle I need to get in to continue on this journey surrendering to what it's going to look like and what it's going to be.
When I let go and surrender, the miracles happen.
I am not in control of what the miracles will be and what my healing will look like.
And the biggest letting go is who I will become and who will I be as this road takes me to places I have never been before.