At Bodega with Scott
Last night when the blog was emailed to subscribers, I received my copy, and noticed two of the posts were missing from that day. I don't know why. And at this point I don't know how to fix it or have the energy to figure it out. So, if you don't want to miss a post, you might want to visit the blog direct too.
I am receiving so many beautiful letters from you. I love when you share your thoughts and stories with me. Yesterday, I received a letter that ended with "Be Safe, May the Force Be With You". The email gave me the chills. Star Wars was my all time favorite when I was a kid. I remember standing at the Coronet Theatre in San Francisco, in line for hours, to see it. Last night, I was crying, wanting Scott to be here with me, and after the tears stopped rolling down my face and I could breathe again, I watched Star Wars. The good feelings carried me through the night. My personal email if you would like to write to me is email@example.com
Comments on the blog are welcome too. Any nasty or antagonistic comments are immediately deleted. I don't go there at all. This is a safe and welcome place for everyone except people who need to self check and figure out what this life is all about, it's not a place to shed negativity.
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Moving forward, my life is taking a dramatic turn since losing Scott. I have lived a good long life with so many blessings and gifts. Everything I have wanted for myself, I have been blessed to create and receive. The rest of my life will be dedicated to service in Scott's honor. I don't have much. I don't need much. I live a very simple life. The money from my writing, this blog will support me along with small jobs I can work to be of service along the way. I am fifty five years old returning to our nomadic lifestyle. This time, I will be traveling focusing my time and energy serving nature, animals and people through out the world.
Through out our life together, I teased Scott. "If you leave me, I will shave my head, grow my hair out silver, turn into Pema Chodron, and go to a monastery".
A month before Scott died, it was a hot day, and unbearable, I cut off most of my hair, Scott cut the rest off with a pair of his gardening shears.
We didn't know, my teasing him, would actually turn into reality.
I am being guided to my next journey, it may be a monastery, an application has been sent. I will still write on this blog everyday where ever I go. Scott asked me to never delete this blog when I started this new one. I promised him I would not ever delete it again. I don't know if the monastery will accept my application. If they do, I will be there for three months. I don't plan on staying any one place for longer than that on my journey. If the monastery doesn't accept me, I have no worries, I know the next stop will be revealed in time.
Your donations will help me cover the expenses I need to get to where I need to go and cover my living expenses along the way and will support my dedication to telling my story, Scott's story, and those I meet as the road wanders in this life.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. For being here.